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Goodbye 2021 Hello 2022 Happy New Year to those of you out there who still read this blog. I hope you made it into the year of the Tiger safe and sound. Here's hoping we'll have a decent year this year. I'm not getting my hopes up for too much but a little bit more normalcy would be much appreciated. Or really, just the travel situation. If that were resolved I'd be a way happier person already. I'm starting to feel a little anxious about by visa renewal which I have to do this month. And also this year will be the 4th in which I haven't seen my family in person if things continue like this... Sigh. I blame the hormones and everything but I feel like ever since the new year started my thoughts have been nothing but negative most of the time. I get irritated at everything and everyone (including myself) and it's a little hard to deal with at times. I do have to get my shit back together, though because I start work again tomorrow (Jan 4th). Wish we had the re...

Whey~ My Birthday is almost over at this point but hey. It's been a good day! Right now I'm typing this while I chat with my mum (listening to her rant right now lol). I had a good day. I got to do something really fun and I met some cool people :) I stepped out of my comfort zone and I think it turned out pretty nice? We'll see (wow I just wrote many words that said a whole lot of nothing... ahaha). Okay well, I got some professional photos taken. A complete makeover. Cost me a pretty penny but no regrets.  The story behind this is that my family was saying that they don't really have pictures of me (current ones and well, I haven't been home in 3 years...) and well, I don't really like pictures of myself usually (the ones I take to let my family know I'm still alive are like super shitty selfies lol). So...why not get some nice pictures taken? But...I don't want to see or be myself. So... I took pictures of myself as not myself. Does that make sense? l...

Uh...so I meant to write a post in November...and I guess I'll barely make it but damn it how has it been a month since the last post. I really fail at this ^^; Just a quick life update. I changed schools and man I am so much happier than I was before. \o/ So life's been pretty good and I've been busy in a good way, I guess? There has been some stuff I might want to write more about here one of these days but uh... maybe during the winter vacation ^^;; Sorry for this crappy short post. Ranty Rant in the next one again :< lol

Hello. It's been a while. I just haven't had any energy to write nor have I really had anything to write about. Fun fact, Blogtober is over in a week. Other fun fact, my personal hell will also hopefully be over in a week. I can't wait. Today was my regular scheduled hospital day. It went okay. You win some you lose some, right? Both doctor and I can't wait for my schedule to be less of a f---k up so that I can go back to getting things under control and focusing on my health. Numbers were mixed this month, too. I tried, I really did but it just wasn't happening with how things are. On top of it, I started my period today, so in terms of checking my body weight, this is the worst day all month because this is when I'm at my heaviest with all the water and other gunk having collected in my body. On some days the 'thought' of getting a sex-change becomes oh so tempting and maybe more than a thought but a consideration. Seriously. But I hate pain so... *chi...

I know I have my food blog for this kind of stuff but... Today I'm going to write about hot pot (aka nabe). Most people like to eat hot pot during the colder months of the year (like, starting from now). I personally love to eat nabe all the time. Even in the summer. Although for the summer months sitting in an air-conditioned restaurant is an additional condition to be met lol Apart from being one of the best foods, I have many memories connected to nabe. Eating hot pot was always a thing that we did at my late grandparents' place. My grandfather would always bring out a pot that was heated with charcoal. A very traditional contraption. I haven't seen one ever since. Sometimes I miss it. Don't know if it was the charcoal but the taste of the nabe was always a bit different from when we'd eat it out of a regular pot. My first ever home-cooked meal at my host-family's place back in 2004 was also nabe, sukiyaki to be precise. So that's also a very memorable me...

Today I met up with some friends and we played board games for almost the entire day. I know today's weather should have been used for some outdoor activities but schedules. I love board games and I have grown up playing them. You might know that I'm not a video gamer (and I suck at video games a whole lot) but board games or card games are a whole different story. At my parents' house, I have a board game collection that takes up several shelves. Germany is a country of board games after all and let's face it, when I was younger, we didn't have the means for fancy new things like video games. Not that those were very developed back then (packman on a floppy disc, anyone?) And I am almost proud to say that my family's never owned any gaming consoles. So I played board games growing up, with family and friends. And that never got old. I got together for 'game night' with friends in university still and obviously even now. Frankly, in Japan I didn't re...

Today was uneventful and yet a lot of things happened. It's kind of strange, in a good way. I slept in (still need all the sleep and then some guh) and then puttered around just doing small stuff here and there (I accomplished laundry and some cooking!) and then wrapped my presents (desserts) that I had made for my friends, who I was going to meet later in the day. Since I'd made extra, I decided to poke my head into one of my old schools on the way and give them a share as well and say 'hi' to some people. I wish I could go back to that school but alas. It's always nice to have hopeful 'omg are you coming back, please come baaack's' thrown at you when you go to a school. The feeling of appreciation gives me strength to move forward. Anyway, the main thing today was going to a cafe event for one of the Thai actors I like. Incidentally, today was also the 6th Anniversary of the BL couple he is one half of. Happy 6th Anniversary Max and Tul! The event was ...

This weekend is all about friends and finding some happiness and catching up on life. So today I met with a former co-worker and their partner and we had nabe for lunch (so full, so good) and just talked about how life's been for us and our other co-workers and whatever else. It was nice to do that. Some of you might know the co-worker from my little saga titled "Help, I think I'm living in a BL drama". If you'd like to know more about that, just ask me. I have it written down somewhere lol I also got to talk to my mum and dad for a bit - couldn't get a hold of them after the big earthquake last week (we messaged, though) because my mum was sick. She's better now, though, so that's good to know and it's another worry off my chest. SIGH. We're all waiting for borders to open properly again so I can go home for a visit. I want to go home so bad it's not even funny anymore. The homesickness wasn't made any better by Japan throwing 31 degre...

Today I took half a day off to go to BANQUET's 5th Anniversary Live. And for the first time in a long time, I don't feel like complete and utter shit on a Sunday night (my kids classes today were a nightmare as per usual but let's not talk about that again). Aside from BANQUET, it's also due to the fact that I was able to meet friends again after a long time and said friends came to BANQUET with me. I can't say it enough but thank you so much. And that goes for my other friends, too (you know who you are). You always humor me, listen to me, let me rant and rave and drag you along to things. Thank you for dealing with this me and putting up with all my shit. ILU. I'm not going to talk about the live here because I said I won't be talking about fandom stuff on this blog (and I have my separate place for BQT related stuff). Just... I enjoyed it a lot. It felt good. I will enjoy these few moments of rest an respite in my happy place.

Yeah I failed and could not post yesterday. And I am cutting it close today. Weekends suck. And yeah today was complete and utter chaos for some classes and I just couldn't be bothered anymore. I will miss some students, yes but for the most part I am looking forward to getting the hell out of there. Three more of these dumb ass weekends to go. I can do this. But yeah my mental state yesterday was pretty shit so I couldn't really get anything done or deal with anything in general and to be honest, it took all of my willpower and whatever shreds of sanity I still had left after work to not fall back into some kind of self-harm other than over-eating and then feeling sick and regretful and...other fun stuff. Lack of sleep also not being very helpful. La la la. Tomorrow will be better. Once I get those 2 shit classes over and done with I can look forward to seeing friends again and then seeing my boys. Getting to see them has been what has gotten me through this shit. Ah, one thin...

I don't really have anything intelligent to say. I don't know if in such a case I should just not write a blog entry or what...but I guess my OCD kind of wants to do this Blogtober 'properly' so here goes. I was going to go out and actually go somewhere else today but I suddenly lost all motivation and reason to do so after I woke up. So after blobbing on the couch again, I just went out to walk around town. I bought some random stuff, then some stuff for my Halloween costume and then a treat for myself. Or rather than a treat, it's probably 100% stress eating. I hope that'll stop once I change schools, too. Exercising and all isn't really a stress outlet for me. It's something I need to do to stay healthy. It's a chore. I've come to not dislike it as much but yeah it is not really enough to be a stress outlet. Screaming, destroying things, hurting myself... been through all of that, too. Didn't really help. Eating doesn't really help eit...

I don't know if it's like mental exhaustion or what but on my recent days off I've just been a useless narcoleptic blob. I can't seem to sleep enough and I just cannot muster the energy to do anything remotely productive or anything at all (like watching dramas on my laptop or YouTube videos). Sometimes I find myself sitting apathetically on my couch and staring off into nothingness. It's a bit of a recent trend. I can't say I like it >_< but I don't know what to do... I think it is mental exhaustion that is bleeding into my physical well being but ugh right now nothing much I can do about it. Uh news flash. So someone got murdered like... down the street. I was out running errands (after I finally hauled my ass off the sofa and out of the house) and all hell broke loose. Giant blue tarps being put up, police EVERYWHERE and then mass media (cameras, reporters, PEOPLE). No clue what was going on until I checked the news once I got home. Fun times. It se...

Today was a good day. That hasn't been the case for a while now. So I'm really happy about that. September was basically: ９月＝苦しい　(ku-gatsu = ku-rushii)... sigh Ok a lot of stuff happened and I didn't get to finish this entry on the 2nd... I fail at this lol so forgive me for backdating it to the 2nd to make it fit. *CHEATING* ahem. So, many things happened today: 1.) I went to my old school and met some of my old students and friends 2.) I got to see BANQUET again for a bit after not being able to see them for over a month 3.) I finally got to see a dear friend again after not seeing each other in person for almost 2 years I'm not going to write much about 2. because I think I talk too much about fandom and stuff in other places already, so I don't want to annoy or bore you with that. Meeting friends is great because I mean yes, you keep in touch (more or less) online and all but it's just different to meet each other face to face and talk and catch up and hear ...

It's October! And so people were saying we should have Blogtober again. I was going to write this on October 1st but hahaha failure is me. My brain is just in no good place after work and now it's 1.35h into October 2nd. To be fair, I was planning to write a post before I saw that my trains going home were screwed and I had to take a detour, which meant that I got home extra late. Whee. But let's not dwell on work. I am looking forward to this October 2nd. I am meeting people today. People I haven't met in years and people I haven't been able to see for a while (over a month). It's a much needed rest and recharge day. So...let me cheat with this entry and let it be October 1st's. And I will write another entry later to talk about October 2nd. Hopefully I will have good things to write about.

Er yeah oops it's June. Scratch that, it's friggin JULY. I really suck at doing this regularly. I revived my cooking blog but even though I have a bazillion posts prepped, I can't seem to be able to post regularly. Or as regularly as I want. There just doesn't seem to be enough time. This is not going to have any substance but... uh 2021 is now half over. When the hell did that happen? In other news... hopefully getting vaccinated on Monday. Will report back about that.

This is a bit out of the blue but I found myself thinking about this particular peculiar story from my life recently and thought I'd write it down. I think it was prompted by people saying 'birthday twin' to people who share the same birthday. I share my birthday with a few people I know - famous and not famous alike - but there is one person, or was, really, in my life whom I really and truly consider my 'birthday twin'... It's one of those 'this shit actually happens in real life' things. So, when I entered elementary school, I was reunited with a girl. At that point in time, neither of us knew that we had been in fact reunited until our mother's met. Turns out our mothers were hospital roommates when they were pregnant with us. And if that wasn't enough, we were both also born on the same day and, check this out, exactly 12 hours apart. She was born in the morning, I was born at night. And our features kind of mirrored that. She is tall, skinn...

Or, do I have a gaydar? lol It's been almost a month again since my last blog entry. What is time? How is it already mid-April? What the heck? Is it just me or does time pass really weirdly these days? So much has happened and yet nothing happened at all, I guess. What the tile is referring to... another one of my co-workers came out to me (but he is not out to anyone else in the company). I'm honored to be so trustworthy (we've only known each other for 2 weeks?) but having to keep things so hush hush... oh Japan :(   I don't even know what else I wanted to write in this entry. I feel like I had something I wanted to write about now it's slipped my mind. And I don't have the brainpower to think about it. I'll just give you (...the 2 people who're still reading this, you know who you are) an update on what's going on in my life, I guess. Mostly about my health. Things were looking up at my last appointment. I have another one scheduled for Monday. If...

Happy New Year dear readers! I hope you made it into the new year safe and sound. I spent New Year's Eve and New Year's Day in a slightly down-sized traditional Japanese way, which basically meant eating Osechi, being too full for toshikoshi soba and then eating ozouni without mochi because uh forgot to buy mochi lol. All the while the TV was on and there was Kouhaku, Johnny's Countdown, some Gaki no Tsukai and Ariehen Sekai. Under normal circumstances there would have also been a visit to the shrine but unfortunately the times we live in right now don't really make that very appealing right now. Anyway, I hope 2021 will be a good year for you. Stay safe and stay healty.

I don't want to say it too loud but I'm in a pretty good place right now. I know bad days will come again but I shall enjoy my life until that time comes. It's been a while since I've been in a really good place. And there have been a few moments this past week when I have been a little "mhhh" about things again but overall, things have been good. So... I finished up all of my set, long assignments for work for the year and was just hopping schools for the three days that I had to work the past week (took some time off because my boss offered me to do so and well, it's been a couple of pretty stressful weeks/months so... I took him up on the offer). I was able to meet my old HT and she was so happy to see me and gave me a hug - despite everything that's going on and the usual reserved nature of Japanese people. I was really happy ;A;  I miss her, too. Was also reunited with the only training-mate who's still left in the company lol He was one of th...

First things first, thank you for all the birthday wishes. Of course I'm sad that I couldn't celebrate my birthday with (m)any of you in person but it's nice to get well wishes and messages from people you love and care about. I spent half of today working and half of today with my boys. And right now I am talking to my family - after having a great dinner and cake. So, overall a good day. It's been a wild ride this year but I think, it was still a good one overall. It was also the last year of my 厄年 so hurray! Free at last ;p at least for a few years. So let's hope the next year will be better than this one. That's all I wanted to say today.  ❤️